Hayden Panettiere reportedly carried intense guilt over living apart from her daughter, Kaya, even after explaining that she had not been in the right mental state to raise her at the time. An insider claimed the custody decision continued to trouble the actress, who wrote candidly about motherhood, postpartum depression, and addiction in her memoir, "This Is Me: A Reckoning."
"Hayden's been racked with guilt about not being the mother she wanted for her child and allowing her ex-fiancé to bring up Kaya," the source told the Daily Mail. "She didn't believe she was in the right mental state to be a good mother at the time. It bothered her greatly."
The guilt reportedly existed alongside other painful relationships in Panettiere's life, including an estrangement from her mother and the abuse she said she endured during her turbulent romance with Brian Hickerson.
Panettiere recalled that Kaya's 2014 birth quickly became a frightening medical crisis. Doctors reportedly declared a "code crimson" emergency after Panettiere's blood would not clot following a C-section. She underwent a three-hour operation and later learned that her uterus had become infected. The traumatic delivery was followed by an equally difficult emotional period.
Panettiere described bonding with her newborn as an "insurmountable task," admitting that she "felt nothing" toward her daughter. She characterized the experience as "a total blackout of emotion."
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"Hayden's been racked with guilt about not being the mother she wanted for her child and allowing her ex-fiancé to bring up Kaya," the source told the Daily Mail. "She didn't believe she was in the right mental state to be a good mother at the time. It bothered her greatly."
The guilt reportedly existed alongside other painful relationships in Panettiere's life, including an estrangement from her mother and the abuse she said she endured during her turbulent romance with Brian Hickerson.
Panettiere recalled that Kaya's 2014 birth quickly became a frightening medical crisis. Doctors reportedly declared a "code crimson" emergency after Panettiere's blood would not clot following a C-section. She underwent a three-hour operation and later learned that her uterus had become infected. The traumatic delivery was followed by an equally difficult emotional period.
Panettiere described bonding with her newborn as an "insurmountable task," admitting that she "felt nothing" toward her daughter. She characterized the experience as "a total blackout of emotion."
#daughter
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