Kristen Doute has spent much of her adult life in the public eye. Bravo viewers have watched her go from "Crazy Kristen" on Vanderpump Rules to fiancée, mother and one of the most vulnerable stars on The Valley.
After years of sharing her fertility journey, Doute finally got the happy ending she'd been hoping for: an engagement to Luke Broderick and the birth of their daughter, Kaia.
So when cameras picked up last fall, a little more than two months after she gave birth, Doute thought she was ready.
Other moms had done it. She'd spent years sharing the highs and lows of her life on reality television. And she adored her daughter.
But behind the scenes, she was struggling. When her baby slept, Doute often found herself crying, questioning whether she was cut out for motherhood and wondering why she couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong.